Ash
Wednesday 2-26-20
Every year Trinity Episcopal and Family of God Lutheran trade off hosting and preaching Ash Wednesday. This year they hosted, I preached.
Grace to you and peace from God our Creator and from our
Lord and Savior Jesus the Christ by the power of the Holy Spirit, amen.
It started a few weeks ago – my friends giving advance
notice by posts in my Facebook news feed, letting us all know that they would
“signing off” Facebook during Lent, or disabling the Facebook app on their
phones in an attempt to use it less often. That’s when I really know
that Lent is on its way – that, and when I start seeing advertisements for fish
sandwiches at all the fast food places, and an email message, from our bishop
at least, that we should be ADDING a spiritual practice to our Lenten Discipline
instead of giving something up for Lent.
Are you still not sure what you are going to be giving up
for Lent, if anything? Not to fear - I also saw a friend share a way for your
phone to decide what you should give up! Don’t do it right now, but later,
simply type in “For Lent I’m giving up” and then keep pressing the predictive
text option, and voila! Instant Lenten Discipline. For example, my phone’s
predictive text says this “For Lent I’m giving up on me and I will be there at
the same time.”
I would like to think that my social-media generated
Lenten discipline would be one that Martin Luther would approve of –
simultaneously giving up on “me” – my “self”/ my ego/ my need to be in control
– and at the same time, taking on the intention of being present
wherever I am at, with my FULL SELF, my being, my attention. After all, this is
what Ash Wednesday and the season of Lent are about at their core – not to make
ourselves suffer to reenact Christ’s suffering, but to deny ourselves, take up
our cross, so that we may more fully be ourselves – beloved children of God –
for the benefit of other people.
We are lucky that this is the year of Matthew, where we
spend an entire year reading through Matthew’s gospel. Most years, this expert
from the Sermon on the Mount we just heard from Matthew seems to come out of
nowhere (sort of like Ash Wednesday some years when Easter is at its earliest).
This year, we have already spent weeks with Jesus up on the mountain top, listening
to him preach the beatitudes – blessed are the poor in spirit, blessed are
those who mourn, blessed are the peacemakers, for theirs is the kingdom of God
– and also about how we are salt and light. Just a few weeks ago, Jesus told us
to “Let our lights shine…. So that others may see our good works and glorify
God.” As Martin Luther supposedly said, “God doesn’t need our good works, but
our neighbor does.” So, our light shines through our service to others… and not
in picking the most challenging Lenten Discipline. In other words, Jesus says: let
your light, not your piety, shine before others to the glory of God.
And yet, we still come to worship on Ash Wednesday, to
receive and ash cross on our foreheads, which will be pretty obvious if you go
out in public after this. It signifies who has been to Ash Wednesday service
and who hasn’t. An ash cross on your forehead isn’t exactly secret. But maybe
some things shouldn’t be “hidden under a bush basket” or a bowl, as Jesus said
earlier in the Sermon on the Mount, just a few weeks ago. Some things should be
done in secret, without attention being drawn to them… like if you do choose to
give up sweets. But some things ought to be shared.
This ash cross marks you as someone who came here today,
to receive both this remembrance of your death, and also the remembrance of
your life, through receiving the body and blood of Jesus. This ash cross will
wash off or smudge off if you forget it’s there and the ashes tickle you and
make you itch … but the cross on your forehead that you received the day of
your baptism can never be erased or taken away. Today you have been marked as a
reminder of your death… but under that is the promise of life that is being
created out of death – our death, and the death of Jesus.
Ash Wednesday is the beginning of the season of Lent, an
inconvenient day in the middle of our week, to start an uncomfortable season in
the middle of our year, to remind us of the inconvenient and uncomfortable
truth that we will all eventually die. “Remember you are dust, and to dust you
shall return.” No thank you! Hard pass.
The truth is though, we are surrounded by death…. But we
refuse to see it, and we also have forgotten how to see it. Plants and animals
had to die for me to eat dinner before I came here. A tree died in order to
give you this sermon. And I think that each of us knows what it’s like to say
goodbye to a loved one who has died.
But we no longer see death as part of our daily reality.
A veil has been drawn over how we spend our last days and moments, and what
happens to us after our death, by the medical and the funeral industry. Most of
our loved ones – or even us, when our times comes, spend their last moments in
a hospital room, surrounded by medical equipment, and our bodies are whisked
away and not seen again until the family visitation, wake, memorial service, or
funeral. It is a strange time in history - in the last century, we have been
separated from the ritual and sacred task than has been a tradition for
centuries: mourning for our dead by caring for them ourselves, in our homes,
with our families… and thus facing the reality of our own death on a regular
basis.
But we have chosen, in this place and this time we live,
to remove all things uncomfortable and inconvenient from our immediate sight. As
death historian and eco-mortician Caitlyn Doughty writes in her memoir about
her time working in a crematorium, she reminds us that: “At
this very moment, [people who have died are driven] down highways and interstates
in unmarked white vans … [they] crisscross the globe in cargo holds of
airplanes while vacationing passengers travel above. We have put the dead
beneath. Not underground, but under the tops of fake hospital stretchers,
within the bellies of our aircraft, and in the recesses of our consciousness.”
We don’t want to talk about it, and we don’t want to
think about it. Not today, not ever. Because death is something we cannot
control or fight forever. Mortality is a battle we will always lose. “Remember
you are dust, and to dust you shall return.” We would much rather forget, on
purpose, until we even forget our forgetting. But the downside is, the time we
spend running and hiding from death is time lost that could be spend on living…
loving… serving… and shining.
Ash Wednesday inconveniently and uncomfortably reminds us
of our death and begins a season in the church year that reminds us of our own
sin and brokenness, leading us on the way to the cross, and the suffering and
death of Jesus. But this season will have an end, just like death has an end. New
life rises from ashes. Death is an end and it is a beginning. Jesus is both the
crucified one and the risen one. I can both give up my “self,” and I can also
bring myself fully present, in all my “beloved child of God” glory. I can be
both made of ash and also made of light.
One pastor poet reflects on today, Ash Wednesday: “I live
in a body made of ashes. It is at once fragile and resilient – easily torn
apart but never destroyed.” Another pastor wrote a of poems reflecting
on the death of her father, and called it “Ash and Starlight,” and wrote “On
waves where trembling feet sink and dance, there rises between my toes, a
peace… Where heaven and earth embrace, where the ash in my mouth, the starlight
in my bones weave together in wholeness…. unfurling my hands in aching yes and
clasp the holy gift, which is this day… Another
chance to live, to burn with grace.”
Today we are marked with ash but burn with grace. We remember
that we are mortal beings, and that our time on earth has a beginning and an
end. “Remember you are dust, and to dust you shall return.” But no matter what,
we are held by God, who created us from the ash that comes from stars…. black
as the night sky where they can be seen and shine at their most brilliant.