Tales of a Midwest Lutheran on the East Coast

Monday, December 16, 2019

Disappointing December


12-15-19
Grace to you and peace from God our creator and from our Lord and Savior Jesus the Christ, by the power of the Holy Spirit, amen.

Every Advent I feel like I want to start strong, with the motivation to read daily devotions, taking time to really reflect on the Advent season. Most years though, like this one, I get to about this point and realize I have done exactly zero of the things that I had intended to do. Even when I was in WI during thanksgiving, though we did put up my family’s pre-lit Christmas tree and got down the boxes of decorations… but we never actually put them on the tree!

This is pretty funny, given that many years ago when I was home for Christmas break while in college, I apparently had insisted on decorated the tree that year, even when my mom was less than thrilled about it. When I left to go back for the January term… guess who was left to take all the ornaments down again? Not me! Oops! Most years, my mom likes to remind me of this time where I didn’t finished what I had started.

How is your Advent going? Are you going to finish strong, or did everything go off the rails starting December 2nd? These texts for this 3rd week in Advent aren’t exactly helping, either. There is still no sign of Mary, Joseph, angels, shepherds, wise men, star,  manger, no Christmas NOTHIN’. Instead, all we have is John the Baptist, for the second week in a row. And he is NOT one we usually associate with Christmas cheer.

This week he is no longer “the preacher on fire” in the desert, preparing the hearts and minds for the coming of the Lord. Instead, John has been thrown in prison for his bold words. A prison that was more like a dungeon, dark and damp and full of chains and despair. But how did he get from “Israel’s Most Famous” to “Israel’s Most Wanted”? Well, we’ve skipped over all the in-between chapters in Matthew where John made some very powerful people angry, resulting in his imprisonment and eventual exception.

Now, at death’s door, John wondered if his life’s work had been worth it. The Lord’s anointed was SUPPOSED to come with power and might, with lots of righteous judging and fiery smiting, and be a savior that basically kicks booty and takes names, with the kingdom of peace to come LATER. But so far, he doesn’t seem to be exactly living up to those expectations. He doesn’t seem to be finishing what JOHN started.

Instead, Jesus heals the blind, mute, lepers, and young girls, and Jesus gives the Sermon on the Mount about peace and the Kingdom of God, where Jesus hangs out with fisherman and tax collectors and Roman soldiers. Which, spoiler alert, where NOT how he was supposed to act as the expected Messiah.

It’s no wonder that John the Baptist sends people to ask Jesus, “are YOU the one who is to come? … or is it someone else?”  And we might very well wonder right there with John, as he watches Jesus’ ministry unfold, and wonders if his prep work for the messiah has been premature.

But disappointment does not just come to us at Christmas time. Though perhaps right around this time of year is when we feel it the most.  Expectations are high to pull into December 25th having just arranged the best Christmas ever, only it almost actually never happens that way. Instead, too often, real life happens.

This “most wonderful time of the year” can also bring up old hurts from people you might only see once a year. Families are complicated, and nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the ones closest to you, the very ones who should be supportive through thick and thin.

And last, but not least, we can’t let God off the hook for being a disappointment. Think about all the “if-onlys” and “what-ifs,” even of just the past year – where you had wished that God would have acted more like a Messiah, both in your own lives and in the world in general. And so, we wonder along with John, since the fulfillment of the promise is Jesus, the exact wrong kind of savior – that is, if you are looking for someone to bring fire and brimstone, Jesus is not your man. 

The savior we WERE given came as a helpless baby, screaming into the world with blood and placenta, born to a teenage mother in a dirty cave. This savior grew up and hung out with all the wrong kinds of people. He healed the sick and fed the poor and talked to those on the fringe. He was a homeless traveler who preached the wrong things, like peace and love, and got on the wrong side of the people in power. Jesus disappointed John the Baptist, he disappointed his family, he disappointed his own followers, and he died, disappointing the hopes of a nation waiting for God to act.

And in dying, Jesus was again a disappointment… disappointing death itself. Because dead people are supposed to stay dead, after all.

Dry and barren wildernesses, as Isaiah writes, aren’t supposed to be joyful and to blossom, either. We expect them to be, well, dry and barren, not full of life and joy and singing. There aren’t supposed to be streams in the desert, or pools of water where there once was only burning sand.

But then again, the blind aren’t supposed to see either, nor should the deaf be able to hear. The lame are not supposed to run like the dear, and the mute sing for joy. The poor are not supposed to be given food for free. There are not supposed to be fools on God’s highway! And if they somehow find themselves there, they need to GET LOST as soon as possible!
Except that, on God’s highway, even us fools will not get lost along the way. On this highway, sinners are welcomed. The poor are fed. The broken are healed and made whole again, and streams run where there was once a barren desert. There are cracks of hope in the stone that seals our tombs, a light shining through them in the darkness, and the dead don’t stay dead.

Jesus asked the crowds what they had expected to see when they went out to the desert to see John the Baptist. What they got was the opposite of a man in soft robes – they got a man who lived his convictions with every ounce of his being – with itchy camel hair to boot. What do WE expect this Advent season? Are we expecting a Christmas to arrive that is as pristine as most of our nativity sets? As lovely as they are, most of them depict the holy family in perfect repose, at peace, and, ironically enough, draped in soft robes.

But that not the most accurate. God is not just found in the perfect glittery Christmas cards and the Hallmark family channel movies. God is not just found among the palaces with those wearing soft robes. God is found among those who are not offended by the fight for what Jesus himself fought for - justice and equality and kindness and love.

Instead, here is our God, born to us as a tiny helpless infant.  Here is our God, who sticks by us, no matter what, every year, through all the good and bad Christmases alike.  Here is our God, who died and rose again for you, even when you disappoint yourself and others. Here is our God, who will see to the finish what has been begun in all of us.

I believe that God has been faithful to me, over and over again, in the journey that has brought me to this time and this place. It has not always been smooth going, but God has proven to me that great things happen to those who trust. …and God has always gone beyond my hopes and expectations.

We can’t know exactly where the next year will take us. But we can know where God is in all the happenings in our lives. God is right here, in the beginnings and the endings, in the disappointments, and the busy-ness, in the starting strong and in the fizzling out, in the dying and in the rising. Our God is right here. In the manger, on the cross, at the table. In the bread and wine. And in the face of one another. Thanks be to God. Amen.



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